Just let it be...?But i Can't just let it go...

Just let it be...

I tell myself.

I thought that I'll getting better and escape from it.

I was stubborn, perhaps, I'm still stubborn.

But I must clarify something, I'm not stubborn in everything, cause I'm a reasonable people.

I just don't want other people who don't know me that misunderstand me.

If I'm right, I'll insist on it.Cause, this is my tenet.

If I'm wrong, you correct me, with reasonable reason, I'll admit it.I'll figure out my mistake.

But some times, somehow, I just can't let go of it.

Especially on relationship. I mean, the relationship of friends.

In fact, I'm very appreciate friendship.

I like to use a humour style to chat with you guys.Cause I just want you guys feel happy and relax with me.

I'm a very straight person,what I think,what I feel, I just straight away speak it out.

Cause I think that, there's shouldn't have any secret between a friendship.

We must be honest to friends.Cause this is the way to be loyal to your friends.

But some times, I knew I just told something that someone dislike, so that she/he will just pretend nothing or ignore, but deep inside her/his heart, she/he doesn't like or maybe feel angry with that.

A friend shouldn't be like this way.

That's very fake. That's falsehood.

When we grow up, we only realize that everything do not like that simple or trueness that we thought as before.

Sometimes I'll start dreaming that if I'm a time and space traveller, I would like to return back my childhood.

Or maybe try to avoid those people that I hope I'll not know her/him while I get back to the timing that I met her/him at the first time.

Maybe,

I'll happier and happiness than now.

I used to change a lot.

Not really a lot, cause I still insist my style my way my tenet.

I become more open minded, in fact, I'm really open minded.

I tried to control my temper. I really do. And my temper is better than before.I didn't lie. It's true, just depends on "Do you Believe Me?"

I admit my EQ really bad. I didn't deny it at all.

I'm really moody, somehow I just turn into a bad mood...

You guys thought I'm just sudden change like that?

I can tell you, you're wrong.

A person that get into no mood sure got his/her reason.

Just don't know how to tell you, or don't wanna tell you. And that's it.

I can realize that sometimes you just don't want talk too much, maybe you scare that I get angry or dislike or whatever.

I realize many things, but you guys just can't realize anything bout me.

I feel sad of it.

Perhaps, I'm a weirdo, just make you can't understand me at all?

or HARD or Difficult to understand?

I guess so.

Sometimes even myself I also can't figure what's wrong with me.

Is it my fault?

I don't know.

But I tried it so hard.

The pain under my HUMOUR MASK, you just can't see it. NO one can see it.

I'm pretend everything till so hard. I'm very tired of it.

The mask I wore, I face I shown.

The pain under the mask, the tears behind the face.

I tried to JUST LET IT BE. maybe, don't worry will be HAPPY =]

But i realize I just can't let it go. I can't just let it go of my pain and tears.

Is the pain and tears doesn't worthy?

Everything Do Have Their VALUE.

The value is depends on yourself, Not the other's thought.