I Just Wanna SAY...

I don't know what's wrong with me.

What's really in my mind.

I feel lost, sometimes.

I feel like, I just think too much?

Probably YES.

Facing with my friends.

I've billion of questions, but when I was meaning to ask, I forget what am I suppose to ask.

I want to be frank to my friends. & I AM.

I'm frank but sometimes I try to say something tactfully that not hurting anyone.

LIES? I know that everyone did that. But sometimes,it's just a Beautiful Lie that not hurting someone, sounds like, protecting him/her get injure from the truth? It's like no sense but it's also makes sense.

BUT, I rather being a bad character than lying someone. So I just spit out anything, frankly.

I told my friends. 'I HATE YOU'

I really do, because I feel like I'm being ignored. & if nothing special, you won't find me.I feel kinda upset. & probably I'll started to being jealous.

BUT, I LOVE THEM. Serious. No denial.

I care bout them. I would cry for them, without a reason. It's not like acting.

It's really the feeling deep inside my heart.

My heartache. When they did something make me feel hurts.

Or even say something. I consider it as Everything.

It's not a joke & not bluffing.

I'm very sensitivity. & I'm just THINK TOO MUCH. AM I?

I care how people think about me but I just pretend I'm not.

I can't control myself what to think.

Maybe I'm too naive on Friendship. I destined can't wave it away.I can't wave those

complicated problems of friends off. It's like a fate.My fate.

No one has any idea that how important is it for me.

I always keep it on the 1st place. For me, I can't be alone. I can't live without friends.

I need listeners, I need warmness, I need caress , I need more.

Sometimes, I feel like I caring someone, but she didn't realize & feel like don't even care.

Am I stupid? That's what I thought.

I like to stick to another. I asked myself. Am I annoyed them? Are they feel comfortable bout it? Do they really like me? Are they care about me?

IF I DIED SOMEDAY, WILL THEY CRY FOR ME?

I always think about it.

but I also keep telling myself I'm just think too much.

NO matter what,

I LOVE YOU GUYS.

Forever.

I HATE YOU GUYS TOO.

But,

I LOVE YOU more than Hate you.

Care Me, Love Me, Knowing Me. x)