What comes to an end just starts a new beginning.

Weeeeeeeee~~~ :D
FINALLY! Sem Break! Holidaysssssss x)

After weeks of living hell... Thanks God, I'm still alive! I'm survived!
Sem 3 has come to an end. I didn't realized I already have studied more than 6 months, half of a year! Probably I was just rushing assignments and catching up datelines, way too busy to notice.

For now, I still feel like I'm a junior. Well, from the matter of fact, I really am. 
It's like... we're never going to become a senior. There's always a gap between our badge to another badge which is actually just studied one more sem earlier than us. 
Aren't we qualify yet? I think so. From our works, I think we should be done better. Uh-uh, don't tell me that it's my typical-virgo-gene-saying. I'm not being picky or perfectionism on our works, just being honest that we haven't reach that certain level.

It does remind me one of my classmate told me that I shouldn't be that... lack confidence and showing.. hmm, inferiority feeling? in front of lecturer (my packaging lecturer). I admit that I'm not confident enough, but it's kinda "over" that he used that description? Sounds extreme to me. 
'Cause I think that my work isn't good enough that's why I behave like that.
I'm not that kind of person who is full of confidence, like, Terence (the self-obsessed and confident guy in our class, LOL).
You might see that I'm kinda confident during assessment/presentation but I can tell you I just try to make people believe, to buy my ideas that why I could speak loud and confidently. At fact, I am lack of confidence.

Let me show you some portfolios of mine in Sem 3. 

Typography - Calendar 2013

Packaging 

Non-adhesive Packaging 

Isn't it CUTE? :P

It's a group project - Shower Set 

Digital Illustration

This is my very first digital painting, erm, realistic rendering. I spent WEEKS to complete it.

At fact, it's not good enough, still need a lot of touch up. 

But I was so frustrated cause I had a lot of works to do, I couldn't just entangled with it any more. If I do, I would never finish my work. :(

 Hello, my first portrait. 

Could you recognize who is it?

NO TRACING, so forgive me it doesn't look alike. 

I could do better, just... I was running out of time. :(

After sem 3, there would be no more illustration and packaging. :( If only I pass.. LOL.
I think packaging would be fine...Mr.Travis wouldn't be so cruel guaaa..? 
Hope not. My final project wasn't what we expected. The concept is good but we failed our craft of packaging. It was really a disaster, the box. 
I am scare. I have to think positively! I must pass! 
I couldn't imagine if I fail any subject.
I haven't learn enough from packaging class. There would never be enough for me, I guess.

Owhh, illustration. I'm on the edge of pass or fail. 
I couldn't finish my task. I am so sorry Mok Mok.
I feel so sorry to my lecturer, Mok Mok and also myself.
I spent too much time on the first painting. Moreover, I really am sucks in time management. I do my works depending on my mood too. I'm just so...*sigh* don't have to mention that. Just SUCKS. :(
Who the hell put Illustration in short sem?? 
They don't understand how hard could it be for students. Short sem should not even exist. Couldn't they just make it even? Tell me why they keep shorten the period too? We have no enough time to learn and also do our assignments.
Admin and management are total shit. -_____- 
Our whole class is basically DYING... FAILING...
Almost everyone gotta fail. I think there would be a few survivors. 
This kind of situation ain't new to Mok. History keeps repeating by itself.
Students failed which Mok couldn't help with it either.
No matter how generous he could be, he couldn't just cheat himself and also the education right? He requires high quality from students, he's strict to our works. 
None of us achieve the criteria, I assumed. 
Nothing we could blame on but ourselves. 
I can tell that Mok really don't know what to do with it. He just hope that we don't screw him over. LOL. 'Cause if we failed, he would be blame either. Pity him. 
When finals/assessment was around the corner, we had dinner with him and also had a little chat. He was kinda numb of the situation that we all have got stuck with. He's really busy and also tired. He really needs a vacation. 
I really like him, he's my favourite lecturer ever. 
I like teacher/lecturer who can be friend of mine. 
I think there's no other subject which is lecture by him other than illustration in graphic design course.
Owwhh, I gonna miss him. LOL. (Like, I'm going to graduate or something.. xD) My classmate said that at least we still got the chance of joining some events with him in the future. Well, I can always see him anyway. 
Thinking of what I've hand in to him, my works...
I really am sorry, I should have done better. Especially portraits. God, I really sucks in drawing human. -______- 
Caricature would be fine, but realistic human? Uh-uh... I need to improve my skill.
Well, I never thought of being an illustrator. But once I met digital illustration, I really like illustration. At fact, I like painting, but still life and portraits aren't really my thing. Maybe I like something more graphical, tend to designing than just drawing. 

There was a week that I wasn't at home. I crashed at Way Ryung's place for 2 nights, Pooi's place another 2 nights, oh and also college studio for one night!
I was so busy with illustration and packaging assignments. Last Monday was the first day of assessment, the other day is another assessment. I thought I would only be late for home that night, I end up stayed at studio until 6 something in the morning and got back to college right before assessment at 11 o'clock. 
Crazy nights with crazy classmates. Thank you Nicole and Pooi who actually be with me during that time. Not purposely of course, just wanted to stay together to do works, I think it's much more motivated if your friends were there to do works with ya. The very last few days I barely breathing and also sleeping. I slept in their cars while on the way to their places. 
Couldn't fight against the sleepiness and tiredness while doing assignments.
There was some hard time for me, for all of us. But now it's over. So far, it's over. Next sem would be another nightmare. 

OKAY. Stop worrying something that I wouldn't know at the moment. 
Just live, before end of the world. AHAHA.
I wanted this holiday to be fun and solid. Fulfil it, make it worthy and meaningful. I want to do more photoshooting! Improve my digital illustration skill. Figure out what style I should have, discover the style in me. 
Some movies with buddies, hanging out... I shouldn't waste my life, let's go crazy crazy crazy till we see the sun! :D